Stitches

my eye's are so tired and weak but i know that if i close them, all i'll see is your face and seeing your face will make it much harder to forget everything including you. it doesn't make sense why these things happen it's like our hearts are created to have a mind of its own it makes us feel things we never thought we could feel, most of the time it's least expected. our hearts our so powerful that they can inhibit our souls sometimes making us feel ways we never thought possible good or bad. the worst of it all is when your heart slowly stitches a piece of that other person into you making it harder to forget everything and easy to give pieces and bits of yourself away. but even with all those stitches comes growth, maturity, and learning how to love even when you don't want to. love may actually have it's own mind, its own soul, it's own purpose in life. love is such a simple and complex word with its own powers. but in the end all it really is is the ablility to feel. its a feeling that draws people together no matter the circumstances or situations, it has a way of stitching everyone together forming a bond that can't easily be forgotten or misplaced, because even though sometimes our desire to not love someone is all we can think about in the end all we can really think about is how much we truly care for them and love them.

Bedroom Project

my new project right now is re-doing my bedroom i hope to create a humble abode i love being in and i'm excited to decorate it and be creative, I've been inspired by an amazing friend Katrina along with a few sites like these Urban Outfitters and Rose & Grey.

Thoughts

Christmas this year was different , more different then the one's in the past, i think it's because so much has happened and so much has changed that i am left completely blindfolded and unsure of everything not really knowing whether i should just let God guide me to where he wants me to go or to just take the blindfold off myself and pick a direction.


Gods plans our my plans
Job 17:11

Mini

Recently i bought the Fuji Instax Mini 7S Instant Camera and i love it, the pictures are credit card sized polaroids, although you can't really tell her, I recommend getting one it's a great and fun camera to capture moments with. Fuji Instax Instant Camera

Wind

i can't think anymore.
all i can do now
is let go.
let the next day come
and just enjoy what
it comes with.
because...
if i think
of all the things
i'll be missing out on
along with all the things
i'll miss, all that will
bring me is tears and weakness.
so instead.
i'm just going to let go
and let whatever is meant to
happen happen.
God has a reason for everything
this shouldn't be any different.
so i'm just letting the next day
happen the way it was always meant to..
without any thinking
without any worring
but most importantly
without any planning.
it's done.

Dear God,

i'm starting to realize the reason why i can't sleep
it's because there's too much going on and the only place
i can let it all out is in my head. all these worries.
confusion, and let's not forget the anxiety.
Yes. it's true.
i try so hard to believe that all this has meaning to it.
that because of certain events happening there's a reason for it all.
i'm drained. simply dried out. i know thats the worst thing i can possibly
be right now and that i'm not making things any easier for myself.
i know your there. next to me. whispering to me that everything will be fine.
i just can't seem to let go, to sit next to you and simply let go.
to let all these tears that i've with held and just give them to you.
so that you can take all those tears put them in a jar, and toss it as far away
into the unknown as possible. so that you can make me new.
i know it's taken me a while.
but God i'm letting go
starting with this letter-
a letter filled with my drainage.
i will no longer feel this unusual dizziness of being lonely
the fact of the matter is i'm simply not. i have everyone i need.
(he) has a way of playing with my feelings. of confusing me.
but now that i've caught him, things will be different.
i rely only on you God. it's taken me quite some time.
but time is what sets us free. it gives us time to reflect.
to change
to grow
to show the people around us how much we truly care.
even if its just with the little things.
thanks for giving me time.

love, whit.

Cambiare

Change: make or become different.
It’s like a moving train with no tracks
My soul inhibits every blood cell that flows through my veins
Maintaining my every breath and movement, just to keep me alive
It’s like never remembering a friend’s birthday, yet they remember yours
My mind fills the lines of unfinished images everywhere
What is change?
Certainly not two quarters, and a stepped on penny
My mouth thirsts for words it cannot find
My eyes have wrinkles underneath from the constant crying
Yet, everything stays the same
The old man sits on the same bench (alone and forgotten)
Street lights always fulfilling there given purpose
Me however, well, I just wait; for something to happen
Adjusting my hair to the movement of the wind
Observing unwritten stories smothered on stranger’s faces
One day-
I will be the ground on which everyone steps on and needs
Absorbing their energy, and guiding them in all sorts of directions
I will have changed into someone that loves everything
But that would be a lie, because staying the same is my flaw
It’s who I am, even when everything else changes

Food With Style

India

Italy

France

Brazil

Here are some pictures of some contries flags in the form of
colorful and delicious food. To see more click here Flag Food

Love/Music

This past week along with other days/ weeks i've been content with life all thanks to Bon Iver whether i'm doing homework, driving, or just relaxing in my room their music always suits the occasion and makes my day. My goal is to someday see them perform live it would be great! but until then i'll just result to listening to my favorite songs such as skinny love, For Emma and Lump Sum

Giving Thanks

I'm thankful for many things which include God, Family, Friends
very basic yes but this year i've learned to rely more on God
and just trust that he knows what he's doing with me,I have grown
so much because of him and for that i'm thankful. My family because
at the end of the day they are the one's that will always be there
for me and i couldn't live without them. Friends more specifically best or
good friends that make me want to be a better person and are patient with
me in whatever i'm going through. without them i don't know who i would be
and what i would be doing with my life. can't imagine life without them.
I'm Thankful.

Streets

It came again
They were like flashbacks but they only came once in a while
My hands feel weak now that they no longer have a grasp
I try to think of ways to makes sense of life and all its obscurities
But the harder I think the more lost I become and without a story
So I walked the lonely streets without a family and slowly became attached to them
Painting the faces of loved ones upon them and giving them love with each stroke
These empty walls no longer are blank with the mournful tears of walking souls, but filled with the memories of forgotten smiles and joyous events.
It came again
The flashbacks turned clear, as If looking at your self through water
My hands took a hold of yours; intertwining our fingers together
The life I tried to makes sense of no longer teases me with its blind spots
The streets have become my home
I have become the story with it’s illustrations all around me

Big Art

I came across this website and was in awe of this guy's art not only because its different but because its so unique and something i've never seen before the artist's name is Florentign Hofman and he specializes in doing projects such as these, to see more just go here Florentijn

Butterflies

these butterflies
are wanting to come
out again.
it's a feeling
that hasn't come
out in a while.
it feels
refreshing,
it feels
nice.
i wonder
where these
butterflies
will take me.
who knows.

Today

today
in a long time
was a great day
it felt normal
but in
a good way
it felt
nice
like everything
was being put back
into place, only
it was a little
different
but it was
a great
different
today
was
a
good
day

Winter

This song has been speaking to me , and describes everything
i feel and how i feel, even though I'm not exactly in love
with a particular person, i feel at times that all i want to
be is loved. these lyrics are amazing. song by Noah Gundersen

i might be screaming while
you're
dreaming without any concern
it took so long
for me to find
that i can't try anymore

and

if i said i'm sorry
too many times before
it's cause
i
just wanted desperately
to make you love me
and
if the sun could shine in brighter
than on your distractions
i would climb
into hell
and
light myself
on fire

Sun Moon

finally. i can breathe.
not feel this weird
emptiness
within me.
i can finally resonate
with
a different form of love.
it's easier now that i don't only
depend on you.
because needing
you only
makes me weak at times.
instead i feel happy and remind
myself of what's in store for me
because at the end of the day
the moon & sun always stay the same.

Untitled

remember when we were kids
the time we sunk our feet in the mud
i do , it still gives me chills
remember when we were teens
we carved our initials on the old pine tree
i do, it gives me a warm feeling
remember when we were adults
i couldn't cook, you couldn't clean
i do, it was different
remember when we grew old
i don't, it never happened
when i was a kid i played with an imaginary friend named bud
i sat motionless by an old naked tree
i cooked food i found on the streets
washed my sleeping bag when it rained
i don't remember much
i try not to, because remembering only makes things worst
so what do i do
i pretend, it makes living a little better
it makes life worth living.

Starts With A Marshmallow

so hilarious the first kid is my favorite :)
i want to do this when i have kids someday

Ripple

it's
simple. really. don't you think.
each day brings more.
every second seems longer.
the sun. the moon. don't always agree.
but. they always fulfill their given roles.
it's simple.yes. things change. but.
people don't. unless...
to be better.
to grow.
then it's okay.
it's worth it.
it's simple.
it's change.

My Song Right Now

Blue Skies - Noah and The Whale

This is a song for anyone with a broken heart
This is a song for anyone who can't get out of bed
I'll do anything to be happy
Oh, 'cos blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

This is the last song that I write while still in love with you
This is the last song that I write while you're even on my mind
'Cos it's time to leave tohse feelings behind

Oh, 'cos blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going
I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going

But blue skies are coming
Oh yeah, blue skies are coming
Oh well, blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

Can't Wait

movies i'm anxious to see this year...

Not Again

life hits me again.
it's like i'm standing still; wanting to move
but too much is going on and i can't even take a step
i can't even think.
i'm caught in a web of thoughts and questions.
i just want to get out, to just be able to enjoy.
but life is not that easy.
if it were, everyone would have a happy ending.
there wouldn't be sadness. or war.
instead everyone would be singing and dancing.
i'm overwhelmed with life right now.
i want to get away from it.
but running away from it would be such a cowardly thing to do.
god has told me many time to not be anxious and to not worry
about the future or what lays ahead of me.
yet there are those days where it takes a hold of me.
i know i'm stronger then this. i know god will help me through it.
i need to pray. i need to focus. i need to be calm.

What Moves Me

To Build A Home - The Cinematic Orchestra
Skinny Love - Bon Iver
Silver Revolver - Lady of The Sunshine
Heartbeats - Jose Gonzales
Talking Bird - Death Cab for Cutie
Butterflies - Sia
Stay or Leave - Dave Matthews Band
Wait - Alexi Murdoch
3 Rounds and A Sound - Blind Pilot
Love, Come Save Me - Right Away Great Captain
Song for A Lover of Long Ago - Justin Vernon

These songs have been my comfort this week and i can't
seem to get enough of them, most of these are my favorites
and if you take a chance to listen then you'll understand why.

Winds of Change

this past week has been a reflection
of what life has been throwing at me
and what's really important in my life.
relationships i have with my best friends
have been tested, and honestly it's tiring
but without those tests how would we truly
know whether they are truly there for not or not.
i have been blessed to have such amazing friends
and to have grown so close to them, regardless
the fights and miss-communications, or confusions
they have only brought us closer and i'm happy with
my life and the people that i'm sharing it with.

makes me laugh

these sonic commercials never fail to make me laugh :)

A Naked Tree

Remember when we were kids
the time we sunk our feet in the mud
I do, it still gives me chills
remember when we were teens
we carved our initials on the old pine tree
I do, it gives me a warm feeling
remember when we were adults
I couldn't cook, you couldn't clean
I do, it was different
remember when we grew old
We promised we’d grow more in love each second.
Life changed me, this so called love you speak of
never happened, I don’t remember it
when I was a kid I played with an imaginary friend named boo
I sat alone and weak by an old naked tree
I cooked food I found on the streets and in trash cans
I washed my sleeping bag when it rained, or down by the lake
I don't remember much before all this became my life
because remembering only makes things worst; it freezes my mind.
Losing myself in the question repeated in my mind over and over again
Who was I, was I someone nice?
I guess not, if I’m laying here in the streets
Was I someone worthy of having loved one’s?
My only companion now is an old steeping bag, and a rusted cart
so what do I do;
I create myself this world, a world where everything someday will be good again.