On Fire

"I'm on fire when your near me, I'm on fire when you speak"
- (On Fire) Switchfoot

Sometimes we forget how amazing God truly is and his plans for us, we forget most of the time when things get rough or life gets overwhelming. Sometimes we go so far as to even question God and his motives towards the things that happen to us, when in reality we're being stubborn, selfish, and blind that it causes us to completely turn what God is doing into something we neglect. We forget this because we get so distracted with the world around us and all the worries we carry with us. Yes sometimes bad things happen to us, or a change that you least expected or didn't even want happens but it doesn't mean God doesn't love you or that he doesn't listen to us. Simply he LOVES us more then we can ever imagine and listens to us every second of every day.

"God speaks in the language you know best - not through your ears, but through your circumstances" - Oswald Chambers

It's simple because God loves us so much and wants us to grow into the women/men that he's predestined for us to be he challenges us in ways that we are sometimes blind to even see as a good thing or something to learn from, but he truly does, he uses all the changes and hurt that we have been through and uses it to change us , to be better, to grow, and more simply to have faith in him and never doubt that he truly always has best intentions for us whether we think so or not.

HE LOVES US UNCONDITIONALLY

Favorite Album of This Week

Thirst

this year..
i've decided
to let change
take over
and simply go with
the flow.
God has something for me
who am i to stand in the way
of his plan, even if at first it doesn't
make sense. regardless i'm ready.
and i'm not scared anymore.

Tomorrow

i don't think about today
but instead i form the crooked lines
on my face that have formed from
my smiling over the years,
if i keep smiling
then i won't think about the present and things going on
i'll just look forward to tomorrow because tomorrow
will be different it will be new and it will be better
i know this. i just need to remind myself of it.
help me to remember.

Wrapped In Lyrics

Lately I've found refuge and managed to escape life even if it's just for 3 minutes or so with comforting lyrics that somehow always make sense with whats going on in my life, it's amazing how much music can calm us and make us feel safe in some way. like everything is okay and that the songs themselves reflect bits and pieces of what we're going through.

David Bazan: In Stitches

Chris Garneau: Raw and Awake

Death Cab For Cutie: Grapevine Fires

Fruit Bats: When U Love Somebody

Damien Jurado: Sheets

Angus & Julia Stone: And The Boys

Sufjan Stevens: God'll Ne'er Let You Down

Andrew Bird: Scythian Empires

Ben Howard: London

JOHN 13:37

"Peter said to him, 'Lord, why can I not follow you now?'"

Struggles, feelings it always ends the same
when doubt hits me, I run, I take my own direction
doubting you is the worst decision i can make
I'm sorry
I know now that if I'm patient and wait
you will truly provide and guide towards that direction
I made that mistake before
leaving me confused, regretful, and weak
knowing i didn't wait for you, that hurts the most
I won't do that again, i won't let myself do that
reality can be be as harsh with me as it wants
I won't move, I won't budge
I'll wait
simply WAIT.

"Never run before God gives you His direction, If you have the slightest doubt, then he's not guiding you. Whenever there is doubt - wait." - Oswald Chambers

Today

it's been an adventure
trying to unscramble my thoughts
balancing out feelings & emotions
it's hard when you expect so much
yet you get hit with reality at its best
we paint a picture in our minds
of how we want certain situation to turn out
movies are so much better then reality sometimes
but reality is what makes us human, sane
i'll be patient
wait on reality
see what happens...