Butterflies

these butterflies
are wanting to come
out again.
it's a feeling
that hasn't come
out in a while.
it feels
refreshing,
it feels
nice.
i wonder
where these
butterflies
will take me.
who knows.

Today

today
in a long time
was a great day
it felt normal
but in
a good way
it felt
nice
like everything
was being put back
into place, only
it was a little
different
but it was
a great
different
today
was
a
good
day

Winter

This song has been speaking to me , and describes everything
i feel and how i feel, even though I'm not exactly in love
with a particular person, i feel at times that all i want to
be is loved. these lyrics are amazing. song by Noah Gundersen

i might be screaming while
you're
dreaming without any concern
it took so long
for me to find
that i can't try anymore

and

if i said i'm sorry
too many times before
it's cause
i
just wanted desperately
to make you love me
and
if the sun could shine in brighter
than on your distractions
i would climb
into hell
and
light myself
on fire

Sun Moon

finally. i can breathe.
not feel this weird
emptiness
within me.
i can finally resonate
with
a different form of love.
it's easier now that i don't only
depend on you.
because needing
you only
makes me weak at times.
instead i feel happy and remind
myself of what's in store for me
because at the end of the day
the moon & sun always stay the same.

Untitled

remember when we were kids
the time we sunk our feet in the mud
i do , it still gives me chills
remember when we were teens
we carved our initials on the old pine tree
i do, it gives me a warm feeling
remember when we were adults
i couldn't cook, you couldn't clean
i do, it was different
remember when we grew old
i don't, it never happened
when i was a kid i played with an imaginary friend named bud
i sat motionless by an old naked tree
i cooked food i found on the streets
washed my sleeping bag when it rained
i don't remember much
i try not to, because remembering only makes things worst
so what do i do
i pretend, it makes living a little better
it makes life worth living.

Starts With A Marshmallow

so hilarious the first kid is my favorite :)
i want to do this when i have kids someday

Ripple

it's
simple. really. don't you think.
each day brings more.
every second seems longer.
the sun. the moon. don't always agree.
but. they always fulfill their given roles.
it's simple.yes. things change. but.
people don't. unless...
to be better.
to grow.
then it's okay.
it's worth it.
it's simple.
it's change.

My Song Right Now

Blue Skies - Noah and The Whale

This is a song for anyone with a broken heart
This is a song for anyone who can't get out of bed
I'll do anything to be happy
Oh, 'cos blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

This is the last song that I write while still in love with you
This is the last song that I write while you're even on my mind
'Cos it's time to leave tohse feelings behind

Oh, 'cos blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going
I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going

But blue skies are coming
Oh yeah, blue skies are coming
Oh well, blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

Can't Wait

movies i'm anxious to see this year...

Not Again

life hits me again.
it's like i'm standing still; wanting to move
but too much is going on and i can't even take a step
i can't even think.
i'm caught in a web of thoughts and questions.
i just want to get out, to just be able to enjoy.
but life is not that easy.
if it were, everyone would have a happy ending.
there wouldn't be sadness. or war.
instead everyone would be singing and dancing.
i'm overwhelmed with life right now.
i want to get away from it.
but running away from it would be such a cowardly thing to do.
god has told me many time to not be anxious and to not worry
about the future or what lays ahead of me.
yet there are those days where it takes a hold of me.
i know i'm stronger then this. i know god will help me through it.
i need to pray. i need to focus. i need to be calm.